For those of you who don't know, I have written a book. It's not there yet – I thought it was, as someone who has never written a book may think, but it's not. Quite a few of the lovely agents who I sent it to have said this.
Actually some of them have turned me down in
such a nice way, I've had a little cry at the wonder of lovely words
and it's given me hope. Not one of them has said I can't write. In fact most of them have said I can write very well. It's like a glowing school report on a first draft of coursework.
currently in the middle of a massive re-draft attempt. This involves
spending most of my time living in the head of my main character, which
is quite weird as she's not really like me at all. She has a cat – the
lucky thing – and a very nice flat in my favourite part of London. I think
she's also got slim ankles (a girl can dream), although she's never
mentioned it if she has. And, she's definitely got one hell of a chip on
her shoulder. So you see, nothing like me *raises eyebrow.
The one thing we do have in common however, is that she's deaf.
Living in the head of someone else who is deaf means
that Deafinitely Girly has been taking a back seat because I'm no longer
thinking about my deafness anymore, I'm thinking about my main
It's hard thinking about someone
else's deafness, especially a fictional person who you love because you
created them, but who you are still desperately trying to find
everything about. It's hard knowing whether she'd be annoyed, for
example, about someone else writing a blog about her, or whether she'd
get upset about the lack of decent subtitles on the Channel 5 catch up
website and app – although somehow I don't think she's such an avid Home
& Away fan as me so it probably doesn't bother her.
times, I step around her rather gingerly, in disagreement with her views
on deafness and how it should be dealt with in the real world. At
times, I think, we wouldn't get on at all. But really, I love her because she's my first ever main character, and hopefully not my last.
problem I've been faced with during my 2nd draft – before I submit it
to my Romantic Novelist Association reader (I'm on the New Writers
Scheme this year – HURRAH!) – is that I love her so much that I don't
want anything bad to happen to her. I've given her a bit of an easy
ride. So for the last two months, I've been getting up at 5.45am to
write before work – not new stuff, but tough stuff.
reminds me of the early days of DeafinitelyGirly.com – back then I was
so emotional about things not being right with my deafness. Emotional
and hot headed and definitely of the flight, not flight, mentality when
the hearing got tough.
But I think I've turned a
corner. I hope that there's enough dark to balance out the light. I hope that my
character brings deafness to life in a new way. And I hope that when I
do round two of agent submissions, someone reads about my
character and her rather bonkers journey and says, 'I love it.'
the meantime, I'm going to try and get back into my own deaf head.
There's so much I want to write about – from new words I've learnt to
pronounce – 'eyot' is 'ait' – WHO KNEW?! to what bees are in my bonnet
Happy Tuesday peeps
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