Thursday, 2 July 2009

Today I am sad about being deaf…

Well, it’s a bee-yoooo-tee-ful day today in London. Hot, sunny and a sky so blue even Wise Friend couldn’t fault it!

I am currently feeling a bit tired as Miss K and I celebrated her moving in officially last night with bubbly followed by wine.

*sniff

Coupled with a complete forgetfulness to drink any water, it would seem I have a mild dosage of a hangover!

I don’t like hangovers – even the mild ones like today's. They make my head feel like it’s about to roll off my shoulders onto the floor. They make my eyes ache, and they really affect my hearing, too.

Today, and whether this is related to the hangover or not I’m unsure, I am struggling with my deafness.

It’s actually getting me down, and for the first time in a long time on this blog, I feel like I can’t find the silver lining. I mean I do know it’s there, but today it’s not enough. It’s not enough to lift me, and make it OK that I can’t do the same stuff as other people.

It’s quite a selfish attitude really, but then we all have off days, we all have selfish days and we all have days when things about ourselves annoy us.

Today is one of those days.

Today, I am sad about being deaf.

Today I would like to be hearing, just for a few minutes, just so I could make the important phone call that needs to be made – that I can’t make.

But what would help? I mean really – I can’t have that wish granted. I can’t be hearing – it’s not who I am.

So I’ve decided there’s only one thing for it – if you see me today, please give me a hug – or do an impression of the Wicked Witch melting in the Wizard of Oz – that’ll cheer me up, I can guarantee it!

6 comments:

Lovely Freelancer said...

A massive virtual hug coming your way now! xx

Jean Boutcher said...

Go watch the V. Williams-Safina match at Wimbledon. :)

Me said...

haha! That would be good actually! nice bit of pimms to wash the strawberries down with, too!

SpeakUp Librarian said...

Hugs from me too.
Sarah

Kris_tofer said...

Hi DG,

I hope you were not sitting too close to some poor unsuspecting person on your bus journey this morning..... breathing your alcohol breath and telling them that they are not actually hearing......

Other than that, I hope you had the opporunity to enjoy a Pimms, the "hair of the dog" really helps.... or so I am told "ha ha ha"

Me said...

Hi Sarah! Thanks for those hugs! feeling lots happier today. Just one of those days... do you get them, too?